NIGHTMARE!!!!
this is so different frm what i want.
why things change so much?!?!?
im really dissapointed with ahem...
haiz.
and i feel like a puppet doing steps, routine instead of dancing :(
now i know what ryan means
i seriously hate what im doing now
i want dance not steps!!! now i look like a noob :(
if i dont even like the steps and the feel is not right,
how can i enjoy and dance? im stressed when i screwed up things
im stressed when cher stand in front of me and stare at me
well... this is so different when im in BDC.
maybe the dancers are more zai, more pro, all
got background that why... but im not enjoying
so i thought of self learning with my dance clique and in the end...
we ended like strangers...
:((
slipped, fell... all nonsnense in the performances .___.
so anrgry and disappointed with myself :(
im no fit to call myself a dancer...
but like what my friend say: "learn frm the mistakes, all dancers make mistakes. just make sure dont repeat it next time"
i will... i hope i can overcome all these and find back my oldself
i really do pray**
how i wish someone knows me frm inside out. even my parents cant.
sometime im really tired but still, i tried my very best to swallow all
my tears back to my stomach... hoping that somone can save me...
i will not give up.... not till when i really tried my best. i want to tell the whole world that i can cope all these and im independent.


thks sis!!! and many others for suppoting me frm the start to the end!
withough u all i would not be here.. able to surivive through these periods...
thks very much!!! i love u all <3


i will be strong and smile as much as i could, hope that i wont
disappoint u all... especially eliz sis!!!! thks so much for all the things man
i just need one friend like u and im statisfied. u are always there for me man.
im grateful for that! sis forever ya! i promise i will be there if u need me too
no matter what (: