omg!!!! so freaking tired :X really dying~~~
BUT i enjoyed so much for these few days...
like i live in the past though everyone change so much...
but still, at least we still have one thing in common,
and that is passion for dance <3
i really really really misses the old me,
where im nt stress for dance, where dance is an enjoyment to me...
i seem to cant find it back till i went back to
my comfort zone. really~
i knw im bad, being bias for the two diff dance groups
im sorry, but i really didnt enjoy as much as when im in bdc
is just different...
i cant say where is the diff but i cant help it
:((((
im glad smehow i manage to participate in this pp
when i thought im nt going to.... is godwill or my intuition?

i miss my dance friends, my seniors... though we dont meet up
as often after we go our different paths but when we get tgt.
we are one big family! the alumni of bdc(:
i cant imagine myself without bdc, i swear i will nvr be
able to dance and fall in love with dance if nt cus of
my dear ryan and ms chan and of course my awesome dancers!
misses how ryan enetertain us and how professional he can be
that really really insipire me... i push myself so as to
not disappoint him, i hope i can do my best and let him feel
proud of our dance item <3 so many thks want to say to him
but is just too much that i will nvr be able to say finish :(

through these years, i found out that im nt a passionate
dancer that i once thought i am...
im nt professional and did nt commit in every dance pieces
especially those that i do nt enjoy :x
dance can be torturing and sometimes i really hope
i can stop dancing.. but well, is nt easy to stop,
totally stop dancing.... when music burst ur ears,
when u see ppl dancing, u cant help but just hoping
to join them and have fun :D

this yr pp found to be using the song "when u believe"
and the lyrics, "there can be miracles, when u believe..."
really touches me alot. i dk why but two wrds that can really
touches me are passion and miracle. i love to have passion
in whatever i do. cus i think passion is the thing that drives
u to hang on despite of all kind of odds. then miracles are
just what u need to believe that u can do it... and i really
thought that able to perform as alumni is already a miracle!
:D
i hope all the sacirifices will be made worthwhile and be my
BEST memories of my dancelife....
it can be my last item, well, at least the last for dancing
with my real me, with my soul... if u get what i mean...
im really tired but have no regrets (:


~can some kind souls buy me some foot thongs?!
my leg is filled with blisters all around so freaking pain :/
haha XP