oh yea~ so what will come has to come. have to learn how to face and live with it. this is probably a learning lesson and shall not repeat again. whenever thinking the world has come to an end, things smehow will get little better, not as bad as what was anticipated. but luck will run out soon and these "miracles" wont happen everytime without a price. and yes, will cherish all these hopes and thk god for everything(: seeing glimpse of sunlight in a dark, cloudy world meant alot. bringing in hope and confidence to the soul. life is always filled with gives and takes. things couldnt see in the past are clear now. when in the gloomy world, a small action touches one even if it seems insignificant. when one is at the peak, he seems to have everything but smehow that aint real. the big picture he sees is beautiful but superficial. thinking he got the whole world but actually he has none. when one is at the bottom, he seems to have lost all but there are always the true souls by his side. while almost everyone ignored, leaving him behind stuck in the valley, there still exists the kind souls to stretch out the few helpng hands. he gets to see those that were by his side, through the thicks and thins and is grateful for that. am starting to realise that prehaps theres no "everlasting" such word in the world. thinking relationships will last is childish. of course, that is the part and parcel of life, have to accept it. relationships include all kinds, kinship, friendship,love-couple realtionships. meh. that dosent hold long. am so dissapointed when the rope of relationship gots thinner yet nth was done about it. no point in saving a relationship when the other half had already let go the other end of the rope. real disappointed. bet the same closeness used to shared will not be the same, ever. i need a soulmate, just one, to pour all my emotions on. oh well....