sch is going to reopen soon... oh no... hectic life starting again. sian. but nope... im not going to blog about my boring mundane sch life... just sme random thoughts. hahah. I thought of this, "smiling or crying, which is harder/braver?" and my answer is smiling. crying is not a sign of weakness. crying is just a way to express the sad emotions, to relieve the stress/unhappiness build within oneself. smiling on the other hand is harder than crying because one is telling another that he is okay.. he is doing good but who knws about the real emotions within? the heart maybe hurt/crying but he still has to put up a smile when facing others. how difficult it must be for him... smiling sounds like easy task. but ask again, how many people in the world are genuinely smiling brightly? smile is braver than cry because one cannot even express his sadness out. to see if the person is smiling or crying, I think the best way would be to look into his eyes. I think eyes is the only thing that wouldn't lie. no matter how hard is someone trying to hide. the eyes would not able to tell lies. when one is happy, the eyes would smile. when one is sad, the eyes would cry. when one is scared, the eyes would be in terror. hoping that I could meet the someone who could looks into my eyes and understand how do I really felt. I realised I don't like to tell others exactly how Im feeling. is hard for me to say im not okay or break down in front of others. it would be easier if someone looks into my eyes and give me a light pat on my back and assures me "everything will be fine... is okay... im always here by your side..." another random thought. time. time is perhaps the only thing that is fair in the world. like it or not, rich or poor, everyone is treated equal. time is the most reliable way to see the true colour/nature of one. no matter how hard a person tries to act, time would tells the truth. and this is why I only believe in time. I cant tell for sure who is the right/good/reliable/sincere person but I know time would tells me who is it, that will stay by my side, through the ups and downs, who is true towards me, who is sincere, who keeps a promise that he made. time can also be a remedy. time can wash away the pain/hurt/unhappy memories/hate... time can heal the wound. but the only thing about time is that time can never remove the scars. once hurt, wounds can be healed, people can forgive but like the scars, people cannot forget. everything can be buried deep down but one would still remember about the past. to make oneself feels better, one should learn how to touch the scars and smile at how foolish/brave one used to be. that's only when u can really let go of the bitterness and move on. life is a lesson for one to learn and realise, to face and overcome...